Keeping it 100.
As easy as it may seem to some, most find that hard to do. You can claim to be the realest; you can claim to always be honest. But actions speak louder than words. This past week you guys may have caught the ‘epic’ performance of Nike Nando’s “Slow”, which featured myself. For the record, all of that was for show. Nando is my homeboy and that’s all there is to it. I have someone else in mind and heart to fill those thoughts that allow me to write those lyrics. The idea of performing the song was cool, although I hesitated at first. I guess that’s why they say always going with your first instinct is your best bet. I knew it wasn’t going to be a grand idea in the end. Yes, it bought me publicity and more supporters of my music. But, I didn’t want to get either of those by hurting the ones that I love. I’ve only been in this craft for two going on three years. I honestly didn’t expect to be where I am today this quickly. Don’t get me wrong I am thankful. It just kind of caught me at surprise. Somewhere down the line it seems as though I got greedy. Yes, I wanted more fans and supporters from the District. But did I really have to go to that extreme? Would you have gone to that extreme? Its not the fact that I displayed such acts but more so the fact that I didn’t ‘keep it 100’ with my boyfriend at the time. I admit it was pretty foul of me and not like me at all. Ask anyone that knows me personally. I misrepresented myself as an artist and as a person. Like I stated before I don’t want to gain fame by hurting the ones I love. It’s not worth it in the end. I’m just glad to be learning this now versus somewhere in the future. This disclaimer might lose me some fans or supporters or even followers on Twitter. People come and go, so it doesn’t really faze me. They’re not determining my life. In the end all I wanted to do was just be real with you guys and ‘keep it 100’. I hurt one of the few people that I love the most – and possibly “the one” - due to greediness. Hell, most people won’t even find “that one” in a lifetime. So I have to set things straight. I misrepresented myself and I thought irrationally. “This might offend my political connects,” but it had to be said.
- Lola
Help me illustrate my feelings Charlei..
Now I'm going to write this in assuming that he got mad at the performance with Nando or the ensuing jokes on Twitter...
ReplyDeleteLola...you have to understand that ALL you did in that performance was give a good show. You didn't tongue-kiss Nando...you didn't hump the nigga on stage...you didn't do anything NEAR disrespectful. I could see if you did some Trina/Nicki Minaj/Lil' Kim-esque performance, but it was classy and sensual...a great performance for the mood of the song. If your boyfriend took offense to that...no disrespect to him, but that's his own personal problem and issue. His own jealousies and insecurities that do NOT lie upon you. Speaking as a former super-jealous boyfriend that had to man up and learn to be secure in what me and my woman have...either he has to respect the sexiness and class you brought to that performance as an artist, or do some soul-searching within himself.
Thanx fam, respect. He was upset at the fact that i left out the detail of the 'almost kiss'. I told him it was just for show, but i guess it was the principle behind the whole thing.
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ReplyDeleteAn almost kiss is like an almost murder...it didn't happen...if a kid has a gun and sees the person he's beefin' with...ready to shoot...then re-thinks and goes home...nobody's harmed...but I'm just saying...lol. If you had kissed him, I'd see the fault...since that ain't the case, the statements in my last comment still stand. I hope the best for y'all though.
I'm just going to say that I didn't see what occurred but when you are a performer you get into character. I model and most stuff I do is in "character". For you to write this on a public blog....you didn't mean any harm and hopefully he understands that.
ReplyDelete*second what Lyriciss said* It's all something that must be clear and understood. The biggest mistake we make in our relationships is failing to provide the entire truth about any situation. Communication is always number one and if the communication is there then you will never have to go back and say, "Well I should've said this or I shouldn't have left this out". Sometimes it's hard to just be upfront about things especially when we feel the person we talk to may not understand. But I'm sure you will both be ok. And hopefully ur relationship will grow from this rather than hurt it.
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